new starts
hi it’s 3am. A lot has changed. …Where do I begin?
First of all, hi! I’m courtney. I’m I guess the host? ? Cohost? I don’t know. Something like that.
Recently we (<— as in the system that so cringe to say) moved to CA with my girlfriend / fiancé / wife. This was a huge decision I didn’t make lightly. I’d tell you that I had been planning this for a while but I haven’t. It was a spur of the moment decision. The moment went like this:
She and I were sitting in my room. The past few days had been a rollercoaster both good and bad. So much happened and it’s blending together because of my fucking DID lmao…. And I’ve been smoking so much weed. Anyway, it was the day before she had to leave and I’d been lamenting about it for days. She got to stay longer at my house than the first time she visited. Seeing her was my saving grace and I knew that if she went home, left me, I wouldn’t be able to take it. I would genuinely have done something bad to myself because my house was killing me. My job was killing me. I was miserable. She offered me a ticket to come back home with her, but I was scared. Terrified, even, of leaving home. I refused. Then she told me, “I’m basically giving you a free one way ticket to California, are you sure you don’t want to just go???” And that changed my mind. I said OK, and we packed up my things and left.
My mom was hysterical and so was my dad but I don’t regret it I’m so glad I’m not in that house anymore. I finally feel alive. I’m finally not being abused and now I can start my life. I’m so happy and thankful.
Besides that, been playing a lot of Fortnite, Umamusume. Found a new group of close friends and a new group of online friends. Got a new job and a lot of other things lined up. I’m happy
Anyway. I’m gonna transition 🏳️⚧️ soon. Bye
\— courtney